听不到！

我的声音在笑泪在飙，
电话那头的妳可知道，
世界若是那么小，
为何我的真心妳听不到？

听不到，

听不到我的执着扑通扑通一直在跳。

Bias!

一个手掌有五只手指。
通通有不一样的长度。
人的心态也是不另外。
人绝对不会对身边的
每一位都一样好与坏。

Eg：两人做同样的东西，
但不会得到同样的回报。
什么对事不对人？假的！
这样对那样就错？借口！
全是自我安慰税负自己。

就连说话都也会有差别。
同样的一番话从不同人
说出口都有很大的分别。
某人说了也许是很顺耳，
若换别人说就大错特错。

总而言之，

人是偏心的！

Blur Decision.

昨天大清早收到一封信息让我感到很心酸。
信息的内容写着：

做一件事并不难，

难的是在于坚持。

坚持一下也不难，

难的是在于坚持到底！

我以为我已经尽力了，但还是耿耿于怀。
不知我是在想走我想走的路还是在逃避=.=

怎么了，

以为决定了但还是搞不清楚？

Care or not to?

为什么她还是死心不改？
她几时才能好好的反省？
难道还要让历史重演吗？
又要伤害深爱她的人吗？

现在我脑海里好多问号。
不知该不该阻止它发生。
就算要管也管不了太多。
因为我根本不是当事人。

不清楚她正在想些什么。
太多的巧合引起了疑问
让我感到心里很不安啊！
现在怕自己是千古罪人。

最好是我真的想太多了。
若是我的疑心太重的话，
不多管闲事也算是好事。
非常得希望这是个错觉。

希望，

不是失望的结局。

人会变，月会圆。

世上有许多种人，

是好人是坏人，

我还分得出。

已经看透了，

也管不了太多。

一切就顺其自然。

我想我已经不怕了。

再也不需害怕失去。

因为真心疼我的人，

始终会守在我身边。

反而假惺惺的人呢，

始终会要离我而去。

我懂了，

人会变，月会圆。

Who Am I?

站在镜子面前的我，
突然感觉好陌生。
越照越奇怪，
总是有点不对劲。
已不认识我自己了。

=/

各位，很抱歉！
请多多包涵！
以前的我也许不存在了。

如何，

找回以前的我？

最熟悉的陌生人！

不见了一样很重要的东西，
就好像
找不回曾经关心过我的人。


有些东西平时看见，
就没把它放在心上。
现在却刻意找不到，
就不断的耿耿于怀。


有些人在我身边时，
我却不懂得去珍惜，
偶尔还会惹她伤心。
当她离开也死心了，
才开始觉得不自在。


为什么总是要等到失去了才后悔？
现在，我终于学会看透她的心了。
可是，再也寻不到我曾经的位置。

才知道，

我变成了她的最熟悉的陌生人！

想念她的时候！

想见她，又见不到。

见到她，又不敢说出心里的话。

想念她，又觉得很痛苦。

不想她，又觉得好无奈。

好像做什么都不够。

不管做什么都好，就是少了那种思念的感觉！

人就是那么的莫名其妙！

明知道想念一个人会很难受，

但就是偏偏不想把她忘掉。

以为会随着时间的流逝慢慢淡忘，

但就是偏偏做不到！

为什么，

想念一个人的感觉是痛苦的？

听不到想听的话！

慢慢把车窗摇下，

妳在转角处等他，

难过象打翻的茶，

浑开一整片对妳的牵挂。

这场爱不会开花，

我清楚却割舍不下，

明知道妳爱的是他，

却还是学不会摆脱这挣扎。

想听的话妳说给了他，

我的快乐从此蒸发，

如果痛是爱的代价，

那伤心像沙该怎么画。

想听的话得不到回答，

我却还在独自装傻，

雨打湿我的脸颊后，

让妳看不见我眼角的变化。

从妳口里，

听不到想听的话 =(

Do I Realize?

可能因为妳实在太好，

我要什么就给我什么。

所以慢慢的这么好的事情，

好像已变得是一种必然的。

我开始只是看到一些我没有的东西，

反而一些我一直拥有的我就忽略了。

学习，

不要嫌弃，只要珍惜！

时间啊！时间呀！

我不是天生爱寂寞，

却比任何人都多，

就算把时间给我，

我还是一无所有。

因为，

我不懂得怎去把握我的时间=(

Is Singapore still Singapore?

各位读者，我阿公有话想要对大家说！

真的真的很不爽，不明白也超不满意新加坡这样对待他，我阿公！新加坡只会欺负老人！这样的办事态度，是现进国该有的吗？他要让大家都知道，新加坡是如何待人处事的！

各位读者好，

我的名叫陈真珠。在马来西亚，巴生出世，它是我的国家。我今年六十四岁，从来未犯过罪。可是在 2010年 5月 9日 的早上六点，这一天我受到了这一生人最大的耻辱。

是新加坡移民局送给我一个不明不白的大礼物！

当天新加坡移民局的官员叫我进入办公室，说是要查我的护照。大约过了半小时，我的太太打给我，问我到底怎么了。于是我便问那位华人官员，问他说我的护照出了什么问题，我犯法了吗，为什么我现在都还不能过境。我很客气的问他，换来的是那位官员无理与无礼的回答。他说这里是新加坡，我不必回答你任何理由，你不能过境。二话不说，马上叫手下带我出境。我听了后，顿时大吃一惊！

这里是新加坡吗？新加坡的官员就是如此的高傲，无礼与无理吗？真叫我难以相信！

我去过很多国家，从未发生过如此案件。2010年之前，我也曾经去过新加坡8次，也从未曾发生过类似的案件！

这次最令我大失所望，因为到现在为止，新加坡有关当局也没给我任何原因，理由或解释！

Well, as his GrandSon, am here not wish to conceal this matter but prefer to share with you readers. All the while I have been respected and looking up on Singapore as a great country. But then am thoroughly disappointed with the case faced by My GrandDaddy few months ago. Juz Can't Believe it!

Is that the attitude Singapore official government possessed towards old people? PLEASE CORRECT ME IF I'M WRONG!

My GrandDaddy felt furious to the max when he was vexed by the Singapore official government. As he was ignored while the transition into Singapore has been rejected unconsciously for no reason and without any reasonable explanation. I repeat, FOR NO REASON! Besides, he never been committed any crime before in his life and why should he be treated in this way?

Didn't the official government feel awful when he said, "This is Singapore, and there's no necessity for me to give you any reason due to the rejection". Ain't reason and ain't explanation to reject arrogantly, regardless of My GrandDaddy's feeling. OMG!

Is that what moral teacher taught me in school, so to treat elder people in such manner? PLEASE CORRECT ME IF I'M WRONG!

My GrandDaddy felt totally resent at that moment, and was most indignant when he tried vainly to plea for an answer or reasonable explanation.

Till today, the feeling of unsatisfied still stuck in His Heart =(

Ensure,

Please Tell Me that I'm not mentioning Singapore HERE!

7th Semester is ending

Question: Will I deserve a better result than before, when I put in more efforts?

Answer: NO!

Normally, I do things at the eleventh hour. On the contrary, this time I had started to prepare much more earlier coz wish to obtain a better result. Was preparing while I was showering, eating, driving, and etc. As a result of that, it seems to be worse than the previous. Thought after putting lots of efforts, I could have do much better. Unfortunately for her, it seems like there's not only no improvement, but also degrading.

Question: Will I achieve an expected result when I possess the confident?

Answer: NO!

Receive much supports and encouragement from my friends. Seriously after I have done, am really satisfy with my performance. Felt it's worth after all spending so much time on rehearsing and practicing. That increases my confident toward the grade I'm gonna receive. But when I saw the grade given by her with both my naked eyes, it breaks my heart to confront the situation. I felt blue about it. As in, the greater the expectation, the deeper the disappointment.

Maybe she has her own reasons and perception to degrade which I don't really understand. Anyway, I'm still satisfy, as I feel that I have at least overcome some of my weaknesses and my yesterday's performance has at least improve.

I ought to say Thank Q to my friends who had supported, encouraged and helped me through my preparation.

Thank Q Soon Poh for giving me the topic before flying to Melbourne.

Although you merely said it randomly, but it was good =)

Thank Q Wei Wei for continuously guiding me when I'm lost =)

And be there to comfort me when I'm down ^^

Thank Q Joo Li (requested by her to enlarge font size, apart from my sincerity =X) for the willing to spend your Saturday midnight to give me lots of brilliant ideas =)

You gotta chill as well ya, Over is Over ^^

Thank Q Chee Hong for inspiring me.

Allowing me to confirm to choose this topic for my presentation =)

Thank Q Wee Han for correcting my grammar errors which is quite essential, as she's very concern bout that =)

Thank Q Ivan Ong for commenting my script.

Informing me whether which statement is supportive or which is unnecessary =)

Thank Q Pek Kuan for the efforts of helping me to find info for the title which I have decided not to use for my speech =)

Thank Q Isaac, Jacklyn, Chye Wei & Chun Fai for the concern =)

Jacklyn, I like the quote, "Don't hold grudges, try to share it with others" and I will ^^

Well, no matter I'm disappointed, sad, resent, down or whatsoever, it has already became the past.

Now, I gotta focus on My Final Examinations!

Gotta,

Smile for every reasons, that cheers Me up =)

Frenz is like Fish

鱼摆在面前，
好像很美味，
真超想要吃，
不妨试一试。

其实每条鱼都有骨，
但不晓得骨在哪儿。
好的鱼吃了在嘴里，
让我感觉骨的存在
就提醒了我拿出来，
免得伤害我的喉咙。
我荣幸认识这条鱼！

坏的鱼就相反来说，
根本不管我的死活。
只会吸引我去上当，
我糊涂吃鱼进嘴了，
不知不觉忘吞了骨
就伤害我的喉咙了。
被伤害却是很痛苦！

朋友，
请顾虑下我的感受。
当我知已被伤害了
只好睁一眼闭一眼，
而不是鼓励在被伤。
我是人而不是傻瓜！
现在我想学习一件事，
当还没吃一条鱼之前，
可以选者不吃不信任。
必须看清楚它的人格，
因为不是每条鱼都会
让我提醒自己别吞骨。
这全都因为我已看不透有些朋友的心，
分不清他们是用真心或者假心对待我。

[Trust]
信任是一种美德，
却变成一种压力！

一杯水

一杯已经装满了水之后，
就不应该去加剩下的水，
无需装水进去那杯子里。

这只会导致其他的水流出来，
会让已存在的水恨新来的水，
整个气氛都会慢慢的开始变，
认为他的存在是来搞破坏的。

这又何苦呢？
如果觉得新来的水是多余的，
就给他一点的暗示让他明白，
刚刚装进去的就必须自知名，
别多事参加或懂怎么流出来，
避免让其他的水感到不好受，
也至少不会被其他的水讨厌，
没有水会在背后说难听的话，
反而也许还会留一个好印象。

一杯满的水，
必须要懂得怎么处理，不会让一滴水流出来。

放手

每当我对妳好时，
妳觉得不好意思，
而我却一厢情愿。

妳不断的想要拒绝我对妳的好，
同时怕伤害到我。
而我却不断的想要讨好妳的心，
同时也怕不够好。

累了，
再也无法坚持的说负妳接受我。
但是，
依然会在妳身边默默的守护妳。

因为，
还是一样那么爱妳，
爱妳是我情非得已！

♥爱♥
未必需要拥有她 - 非我莫属，
也许，放手会让她快乐一些！

低调

嬉笑打闹拥抱，留下了那么多开心合照
互相取暖依靠，熬过了最低潮
一起生活也一起埋怨过
走过最好与最糟
我在心里想的不用说明妳知道。

晨昏日夜颠倒，这房子突然没从前热闹
散落一地微笑，没有人去打扫
感情很微妙，再多付出也好，再多关心都徒劳
爱从来就没有固定的味道
它最后停在哪里谁知道？

我的难过是如此低调，因为不想打扰
我在寂寞的墙角，努力的对自己好
妳用微笑回报
朋友或情人不重要。

我的悲伤是如此低调，傻子才会哭闹
就算妳发现也好
我想妳一定会选择假装不知道
只怕我自己的掩饰不够好。

晨昏日夜颠倒，这房子突然没从前热闹
散落一地微笑，没有人去打扫
感情很微妙，再多付出也好，再多关心都徒劳
爱从来就没有固定的味道
它最后停在哪里谁知道？

我的难过是如此低调，因为不想打扰
我在寂寞的墙角，努力的对自己好
妳用微笑回报
朋友或情人不重要。

我的悲伤是如此低调，傻子才会哭闹
就算妳发现也好
我想妳一定会选择假装不知道
只怕我自己的掩饰不够好。

我的难过是如此低调，因为不想打扰
我在寂寞的墙角努力的对自己好
妳用微笑回报
朋友或情人不重要。

我的悲伤是如此低调，傻子才会哭闹
就算妳发现也好
我想妳一定会选择假装不知道
难到是我对我自己不够好？

signing off,
低调的难过与悲伤真的好难受！=(

7hours at Home

Okie, wanna apologize to My Family as in this week I stayed at home for lesser than not more than 7hrs on average each day. I feel that's awful.. OMG! =(

On Sunday ~>
Celebrated (Cory's Sis) Casii's Birthday!
In the middle of the night, everyone was like acting so and extremely CRAZIEEE.. and during that night, its like celebrating for Cory more than for her sister. lol xD

pic of the night. hehehe

On Monday ~>
Hanged out with Eu Yong, Jian Hau & Thiam Chai. haha.. Finally Ivan willing dare to step into Giant. zzz
Then watched G-Force and Thx Soon Poh for treating me McD.. hehe =D

On Tuesday ~>
Nothing much to do on Tuesday ~ visited Family & Frenz =_="

On Wednesday ~>
The plan to jog in Botanic Garden has been destroyed by Darryl Tee >.<
Took Bah Kuh Teh as our breakfast with Mr. Tan (Additional Maths teacher) and Thx Eu Yong for treating me.. hehe =D
Then went Neway with Thiam Chai, Eu Yong & Wei Long for 4hrs. zzz

On Thursday ~>
Went AEON with Cory, Catherine & CY. Having lunch in Pak Li and accompanied CY to salon after that. Back to Cath's House to spend the remaining time.
Bout 5pm, headed towards Wei Long's House. Then Thiam Chai & I were invited to have dinner with His Family *damn paiseh le* and Thx ya.. hehe =D

~Emo-inggg~

On Friday ~>
Oops! First time I drove My Car till NO petrol and stuck in the middle of the road. I was like so nervous.. no idea what to do. Fortunately My "Ferrari" stopped in front of Petronas and manage to drive slowly to the petrol station after a few minutes. Otherwise, pity Darryl & Garry gonna push the car d. hehe =p
Played badminton with My Schoolmates in the evening.
While at night, celebrated Jacklyn's Birthday in Station One! *will upload the photos in my next post*

On Saturday (Today) ~>
Stayed at home accompany My 3rd Bro who nearly faint as he was like a bit drowzy juz now. So accompanied him and see how's the condition.

signing off,
think am hanging out later.. yumcha? xD

Yumcha..!

Had already Yumcha nearly for my whole Semester 4 Break ~ should be at least 10 times out of 14 days. Wow! =D

Sunday.
Yumcha in Berkeley Corner after watching movie and before the Penang Island trip. After that, went "Yao Ceh Hor" to spend the remaining time before sleep.

Monday.
Yumcha in Penang after bored and tired of walking in night market. Nothing could be purchased from the night market and only thinking of finding somewhere to rest.. and here we found mamak. Phew!Tuesday.
Yumcha again in the same mamak as the day before Tuesday with 3C (Cat, CC & CK). Spent bout 1hr plus over there and back to the apartment to chit-chat again for approximately 3 to 4hrs.

Wednesday.
Yumcha for another time in Berkeley Corner after back to Klang from Penang and before Genting Highlands trip.Thursday.
Yumcha in KFC which located in Genting when still wanna keep myself awake.. was shivering while chatting till the sunrise. lol..... kinda miss the weather in Genting! :)Friday.
Yumcha in No Name mamak when back to Klang from Genting and reached home on Saturday middle of the night. Thx Joy Ling for treating us.. when the bill comes, only she realized that she has less than enough to pay. OMG! hehe

Saturday until 2nd week of Sunday.
Yumcha with the commitees of the prom night which I had attend on that day till middle of the night, so consider Yumcha till the 2nd week of Sunday. zzz. haha

Few photos from the prom..Table 2

Monday.
Yumcha with Eu Yong & Soon Poh has cancelled due to reasons Eu Yong the busy man gave to reject. zzz
In the afternoon, visited Isaac who has injured his leg badly. The red color which blocked by Annabel's hand is the part where he injured. Wish him to recover as soon as possible! =)Tuesday.
Yumcha with My Cousin in Station One has cancelled as well. But with college, so called "College Gathering" in the same venue still on. lol =p

Snapping Photoz Session... trying to act cool but.. lol xDJoy, WHy, Ree & CC

Wednesday.
No Yumcha on the 2nd week of Wednesday coz gonna celebrate Granddaddy's Birthday! Celebrated in advane to give My Granddad a SURPRISE! =D

Went jogging early in the morning

Then played basketball. But before that, played with CY's puppiesthe puppies love to bark when saw strangersits quite fun to have puppies at home :)

Watched The Proposal in the evening and celebrated Granddaddy's Birthday after dinner at 8pm plus *will update the Birthday Celebration in my next post!*

Thursday.
Yumcha in No Name mamak after watching I Love You, Beth Cooper. As a reminder, it's quite a waste of money watching this movie. Anyway, its ok if you had watch it. :)

Friday.
Went Port Klang to have lunch. Then me the sampat one go "Yao Ceh Hor" to the north, south, and even west of Port Klang with CC & Enyu after lunch before to CK's house. OMG! lol xD

in CK's House

on our way Back Home! =)

Saturday.
Yumcha in Jeth's Cafe after celebrated Eu Yong's Birthday! *will update the Birthday Celebration in my next next post!* Then realized its kinda early and not late so CY & CC accompanied me to "Yao Ceh Hor". hehe Thx! =)

Sunday.
I did not join to Yumcha in Station One Meru & Berkeley Corner which is their 2nd round. But I still Yumcha coz I drank "Liang Teh" at home. lol xD

signing off,
seldom Yumcha when new semester (5th sem) started! =(

I HATE GASTRIC!

Am suffering from gastric since yesterday evening 6pm, but now feel much better. Need not visit doctor unless its a very serious case, coz I'm alwayz satisfied with My Granddaddy's treatment. haha =p !

I HATE GASTRIC!

Gastric is so bloody damn "FISHING" pain and irritating *couldn't even sleep tightly!*. My plan to have dinner with My Parents before the trip to Penang Island has been affected. Aiks!
However, planning to have lunch with them in the afternoon later *I have to make it!*

...

Okie, realizing My Wallet has been emo-ing and crying during My Semester Break. Oops! *I must learn how to save money!*
3 days ago, shopping in AEON for a few hours as mentioned in the previous post. Neway, I did not buy anything coz can't afford to buy T_T !

The next day is like One Day Trip ~ Leaving house early in the morning and back home late in the night.. haha. Its worth neway, coz its an Enjoyable Day =D !
Shopping in Padini Warehouse Sales which is located in Shah Alam.
Owhh! There are lotsa people buying clothes (人山人海!) coz the price is extremely low. Manage to buy clothes for My Baby Bro & Cousin. haha =) !

When viewed the pic below, thought Joy Ling is the lady who wore pink color shirt with the make-up on the face. lol *look alike*

Rushing towards Green Box in AEON straight after shopping.
Sang for 3hrs instead of 4hrs, from 12pm-3pm.
Felt so sorry! As I didn't know they had prepone the time from 2pm to 11am and because of my lateness, they need to postpone an hour later. haiz =( !

Next destination was in Chern Yang's House to rest and take a nap till 6pm.

Then heading towards Yacht Club to swim.

Everyone was enjoying wey =) !

Decided to go for Buffet Steamboat located in BBK after that. As usual, acted crazily while having meal.. haha!
Again, I wanna apologize! When we were on the way, realized My Chain is not with me and causes Loo See's as well as the People in Ivan's car to make an U-Turn, back to the Yacht Club to search for it. Sorry!
Thx to Cory for keeping it and Chern Yang for the ride along the 1 day trip! Thank Q!

...

Lastly, I received a news ~ Semester break has been extended for 1 week, means we gonna have 3 weeks holidays?

can anyone tell me,
Am I troublesome xD ?